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nickdevilance
18 August 2010 @ 02:17 am
I'll have you know, I don't blame you. I don't feel cheated, I don't feel betrayed. Responsible. Yeah, I feel that; I feel like if I had just called more often, walked over to yours or took you over to mine, made that extra effort to prove to you just how much you mean to me...well, we wouldn't be in this mess. I feel like it's my fault, that I put a distance between us: that I gave you the opportunity to see him more than you saw me. But I love you. More than I have loved most other people, and I can safely say that I always will. I know it's over, it won't work anyway, I'm too old, you're too far away, different worlds, different lives, I know that it's better this way. I understand. Just, right now there is this part of me that feels like someone is running a jack hammer into my heart, wearing down a hole that won't ever be filled. Gramms and Sis say it will get better. "New school, new friends, new chances." But you're my first--can I pull a major cliché and say you're my first love?--and that is something important. Whatever the theory is with that "time heals" crap and that saying: "It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all," I just hope that Tennyson was right and that I'll be able to move on with time. But make no mistake, I'll always have this. The memories that I have of my time spent with you are sacred treasures. Prom was a highlight--you were so beautiful that you made me feel beautiful too--but also the little things. Hanging out in yearbook, laughing over silly fanfiction, how I hog the bed--sorry! ^_^--those things make me smile. I am damn lucky and glad to have them, so happy that we shared those things at least.

So yeah, it's complicated, it's not going to work, end it now before we hurt each other. I understand. I love you.
 
 
Where I'm hiding: Rec Room 5
How emo I am today: melancholymelancholy
What I'm Listening to: Alice (2009)
 
 
nickdevilance
09 August 2010 @ 08:14 pm

I Write Like by Mémoires, Mac journal software. Analyze your writing!


I wasn't expecting that because the text that I gave it was from some gay porn I never finished writing!!! ^_^ LOL :P
 
 
Where I'm hiding: Sickbay
How emo I am today: amusedamused
What I'm Listening to: Brothers
 
 
nickdevilance
What do you want to do before you die?

Live...Live without the impending doom that is death on my mind, thanks. ^_~
 
 
Where I'm hiding: Bed
How emo I am today: tiredtired
What I'm Listening to: For Your Entertainment -- Adam Lambert
 
 
nickdevilance
23 November 2009 @ 11:12 pm
Title: My Computer
Fandom: Supernatural
Genre: Wincest, humor
Rating: NC17 for language and sexing
Pairing/Character(s): Sam/Dean, OFC, Bon Scott (kinda ^_^;)
Summary: It's my computer, damn it. (Sam's POV)
Warnings Advertisements: incest, man on man sexing, horrible singing of an AC/DC song, implied roofie.
Note: Okay, Becki and I got this idea from a video that someone somewhere found on the internet and posted on LJ. It was of a guy who sounded (and kinda looked) like Sam Winchester (or rather, Jared Padalecki). He was masturbating (naughty Becki for sending me porn! :P). Anyway, this idea sprung up and I wrote most of it rather quickly. Then, I used it to replace another challenge that she gave me a while ago and she let me, so I decided to sneak in a surprise for her that encompasses the last half of the story. Man, that was a BITCH to write. I mean it. I was ALMOST done for the last month. And now I'm finally done and Becki's not annoyed anymore, so we can all sleep well at night, now, yeah? Well, except for me, cause I have insomnia, but you get the point. NOW to cease my pointless rambling! On with the fic!

That wasn’t what I’d meant to do when I slipped the tranquilizer into his drink, or even when I tied his hands to the head board.Collapse )
 
 
How emo I am today: excitedexcited
What I'm Listening to: Tree Hugger -- Antsy Pants
 
 
nickdevilance
22 November 2009 @ 04:57 pm
Title: Dean's Bad Sign
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Dean/Meg/Sam, twistedly one-sided
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Rape, violence, mild language
Summary: AU of Born Under a Bad Sign. Instead of Meg possessing Sam, she possesses Dean
Genre: Angst
Note: Written at three different periods of time. If there are any flow issues, just smack me and point them out.
Note 2: Un-betta'd. I love how that turned into a sort of warning. Beware of possible grammatical and spelling errors.
Note 3: Sam-centric. Sam's POV

Reader/Writer: Nicholas de Vilance
Note on podfic: Heh, I'm liking the idea of podfics and everything, so you might see quite a few more of these. This one...it took me a bit of editing to get it to be acceptable. Some parts were done last night--late at night when I didn't want my voice to be bugging anyone--so the whole thing might be a bit on the quiet side.
Length: approximately 28 minutes


Download here.
Read fic here.
 
 
Where I'm hiding: peep
How emo I am today: ditzyditzy
What I'm Listening to: meep
 
 
 
nickdevilance
20 November 2009 @ 12:20 am
Okay,you all probably know I I'm liking recording my voice, even though I personally think I sound like shit recorded. So I did something that isn't really considered podfic. I was hella bored and found this supernatural quote on IMDB.com. So I thought 'I'm a theater-type, maybe I should just act it on the recorder, like a voice actor.' So I did and I decided to share with you.

You know the drill. Give me your brain if you're gonna listen and then tell me what you think if possible.

Monologue from Supernatural Season 4 Episode 6 "Yellow Fever."

Download or listen here.
 
 
Where I'm hiding: your bed
How emo I am today: crazycrazy
What I'm Listening to: silence...or damn near it.
 
 
nickdevilance
15 November 2009 @ 11:09 pm
Title: There She Goes My Beautiful Girl
Fandom: Supernatural
Characters/Pairings: Sam, Dean, OFC, Dean/OFC
Genre: Angst/Gen
Rating: PG-13 for language
Summary: Sam muses on Dean and makes a startling realization.
Author's Note: Wrote it a while ago. Then, expanded it and fell in love.
Reader's Note: Heh, BIG thanks to juice817, for her advice on software etc. People may remember this fic from a while ago, but I warn you, I've never really read anything aloud before. It may just as well suck monkeys. Please, comment if you're going to download or listen, and if you have the time, tell me what you think about it. ^_^ I love you all (mostly).

Download here.
 
 
Where I'm hiding: Meow
How emo I am today: accomplishedaccomplished
What I'm Listening to: Dean making weird sex noises as he chews on himself. (Dean's my dog, by the way)
 
 
nickdevilance
26 October 2009 @ 07:44 pm


I made a banner...for a story that I haven't written yet. To make this, I used MS Paint and the time it took was about 9 hrs. I'm quite proud of the result, even if it does kind of suck. From right to left: Norman Reedus, Sean Patrick Flannery, Jensen Ackles, Charlize Theron, Jared Padalecki.

Okay, as for my shout out. And yes, Becki, I am still working tirelessly on all of the stuff I'm supposed to be working on. I just wondered if there were any writers out there that were interested in helping me write this story. I have been considering writing it on my own for the last one or two years, but really, it would sound better as maybe and rps or something. Becki won't roleplay with me anymore... We're too busy with other things *waggles eyebrows*  !.!.!. *ahem* Anywho, that's my shout out. Comment here if you're interested, comment if you like my banner, comment if you think I'm a dick wad, I don't mind. JUST COMMENT!

The story is fantasy. It revolves around Jared and Jensen (as a pairing) with hints of Sam/Dean (wincest). There will be magicians, demons and hopefully lots of angsty smutt. Don't want to give too much away, though, so comment and contact me! ^_^

 
 
Where I'm hiding: My Desk
How emo I am today: chipperchipper
What I'm Listening to: Renegade --Styx
 
 
nickdevilance
29 September 2009 @ 09:26 pm
Title: The Other Side
Genre: Angst, Hurt/Comfort
Fandom: Wincest, Supernatural
Rating: NC17
Characters: Dean, Sam, mentions of John and Alistair
Warnings Advertisements: Memories of Hell, angsting and some self-hate. Part two has men-sexing.
Summary: "I know exactly where I'm going and I'm running there."
Notes: I wrote this a while ago and I don't think I ever posted it. Interesting, no? Well, if I have posted it, then damn...posting it again!!! ^_^



Dean...fuck DEAN!Collapse )
 
 
Where I'm hiding: Home
How emo I am today: mischievousmischievous
What I'm Listening to: Other Side-Red Hot Chili Peppers
 
 
nickdevilance
29 September 2009 @ 09:06 pm
Title: The Other Side
Genre: Angst, Hurt/Comfort
Fandom: Wincest, Supernatural
Rating: NC17
Characters: Dean, Sam, mentions of John and Alistair
Warnings Advertisements: Memories of Hell, angsting and some self-hate. Part two has men-sexing.
Summary: "I know exactly where I'm going and I'm running there."
Notes: I wrote this a while ago and I don't think I ever posted it. Interesting, no? Well, if I have posted it, then damn...posting it again!!! ^_^

How long, how long Will I slide?Collapse )

 
 
Where I'm hiding: Home
How emo I am today: mischievousmischievous
What I'm Listening to: Other Side-Red Hot Chili Peppers